I'm ready to get out of this garage apartment.
I really don't mind it when it's just me and my puppy, but it's just so crowded with all three of us. I really wish I could leave and go on a walk without waking up my mom. I'm not entirely sure where I'd go, though.
When I'm in my new room, I'm planning to cover the walls (and possibly ceiling) with anything I can. I'm going to run around town with Micah and pick up a bunch of posters from Nan's and Houston420. I'm trying to think about how I'm going to set up my room.
I honestly miss living on a second story. When I move out, I'm going to be sure that I don't live on the ground. And my chairs and bookshelves will be close to the window. I'll do all of my reading on the sill, and think up whimsical stories and lead a more exciting life through my imagination while dangling my feet above the street.
I think I'm going to try my hand at writing music again. I never really got into it, I mean, I enjoyed it, but I was just really self-conscious about anything I wrote. And even when I'd sing my songs to my friends, they'd come back with something snarky. Even knowing it's all in good fun, I still get embarrassed really easily when people poke at things I've worked on.
I hope it rains soon. Or I hope the air moves, at least. It's been completely still and humid and awful all month. If it rains really hard, I'll be happy to just sit on the sidewalk and enjoy it.
I need to keep writing. I haven't really done anything that deserved any merit for months, and it makes me feel lazy.
Honestly, I wish I were more like my freshman English teacher. Once, he started his class off by just reciting one of his own poems about his experiences in the war. He gave it to us in a voice that brought silence and attention. I'm not exactly a veteran, nor am I old enough to have much experience in anything, but I still wish I could build on myself, make something I'm proud of and
I don't really know how to say what I was trying to, so I'm just going to stop there.
It's almost four in the morning, I'm not tired, and I kind of want to watch a scary movie. But my headphones died. ):